Hideout

At one of my hideouts just thinking and enjoying nature. The music and breeze take me to a happy place. A place were I can't be found. A peaceful place. So relaxed am I. It feels like there are no weights on my shoulders. That's all. Peace.

Wish things were easier.

Wish things were easier and not so complicated. It's probably me just thinking too much. I might have what I want right in front of me but can't see it. I have to be patient and wait for what's in store. We shall c. Nite nite.

Just random shit

I'm back to square one.
I need to find my place in life.
I'm back to not having fun.
I need to start up the fight.

Moving on is what I need to do.
Time for me to grow up.
Moving on to something new.
Time for me isn't much.

I want someone so bad.
The situation just so crazy.
I want someone and its sad.
The situation got me all dazey.

My mind needs a huge break.
I think too much on things.
My mind is focused on a mate.
I think I need to give up on this dream.

I don't have anything goin for me.
I need to get my shit together.
I don't think I can leave it be.
I need to be more clever.

I hope things go my way.
I'll get what I want.
I hope for another day.
I'll get what I aught.

Izzzz Back

Haven't wrote in a little minute. Decided today to get back to it because I need a place to release. I need a friend to talk to but I'm lacking that at the moment. I can't talk to my bff like I want because we don't talk much. Also I was trying to make someone a good friend that I could talk to about anything but that's not working how I planed. I really don't know how that's going. :/  Well n.e.ways I am going to start writing again. Stay tuned

Update

haven't wrote in awhile so ill let it be known what's been up. i haven't had the drive to write lately. i have been really stressed and out of it. i have been praying more and more to clear my head and get better. my first step is to start with yahuah. then i have to listen to yahuah and let go of my ways, thoughts, and pain. well ill be working on me so tata for now but i will be back. ill be back happy, energized, and stress free. byebye

I Hate Liers

I hate liers yes I do. You think u are protecting me but you are hurting you.
I hate how you think I believe. Guess again cuz I'm getting ready to leave.
I hate that u have to lie. I hope u stop before I say goodbye.
I hate what u are lieing for. You must not see how close I am to the door.
I hate how you try to make me think I'm crazy. You will be crazy when I'm no longer your lady.
I hate your lies. You will never again see my eyes.
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Puttin me down

Putting me down won't make me think better of you. You suppose to bring me up and raise my spirits. I hate when I'm feeling bad you make me feel worse. Why do I even try to try. I love you with all my heart but things you say crushes it. I thought in a relationship if someone is sad and not feeling right the other person is suppose to make sure they ok. If I feel a certain way, you aren't doing nothing to make me see different. When I am wrong I admit my faults. When I broke your heart I did everything in my power to fix it. I pray everyday for us. I do love u with every piece of my soul but I can't take your hurt. If u can't speak to me with a heart I don't want to hear it. I deserve the best. I guess its my bad for thinking you are the best.
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